CHECKING IN: lover with soul power

(photo by stephen)

i've had a lot of things rattling around in my brain to write about lately, but these days there seems to be so many other things which need doing i just can't find the dedicated time to write. i know this blog has been relatively quiet compared to those earlier ones of multiple posts per week. i'm still glad i've kept it around. surprisingly, there even seem to be a few of you who still come around to see what's going on. and i love you to bits for that.

i'm trying to stay organic and eco-friendly ever since i arrived, but it is not an easy task here. i mean you do see people using re-useable shopping bags, but it seems like no one here buys organic shampoo and conditioner because i can't find them anywhere. maybe i just don't know where to look, but even if they do sell them they are probably expensive. i might as well switch to bi-carb soda and vinegar for my hair, cheap, accessible, and even more earth friendly. i heard they work wonders too.

speaking of hair, i miss wearing my beret all the time. i miss knitting too, but it's way too hot. i bet i'm not the only one who misses winter these days. i'm definitely a winter person, no arguments there.

i stress myself out needlessly sometimes over trying to discover or uncover what i want in life. the problem stems from the assumption that i'll want the same thing forever. maybe i don't need to discover what i want forever, i just need to discover what i want at the moment. but then i started thinking, if i don't think about the future then what's the point of thinking in the first place? geez i don't make fok all sense. sometimes i wonder if i'm qualified to be an adult.

it's scary, but i think i might be going off caffeine. i havent had a coffee for three days so i just made myself a black filter. and i've been working on the same cup for three hours. in the past, i could finish one in minutes. maybe it's because hazelnut cream flavoured coffee beans from seattle's best tastes totally weird?

i feel like writing more often these days. see you soon x